blogging

I just read a note by someone who doesn't blog because of the comments that she gets that are very spiteful. Sad day. When one human exploits another human's insecurities, for what reason, who knows. But after the blog she had so many "you go girl" comments, so hopefully that has helped the negative be countered. I'm not really sure why i just started out with this.

I feel like sometimes my serious blogs always come back to the same issue. And it seems like that issue is always something to do with coming back to God and how things just "work" better if you do. For instance - if you root your self-worth in God, your eyes are clear when you look inside yourself to see your worth. That isn't to say that it's not hard, or that the crap of the world doesn't exploit your insecurities (as mentioned above), but the fact is if you understand your worth in the eyes of God, then you see the truth. Status and material stuff, I would venture to say, are the leaders of the worldy worth-measurers. I can relate to that, it's nice to be the one that people come to because you know what they want to know, it's nice to be a person who is looked to for leadership. It's nice to be the one that people want to hang out with cause you have all the fancy toys. And there's nothing wrong with that, and I am grateful to those people with all the cool toys, cause I get to play with them ;-) But going beyond that, and realizing that it's just stuff, or that the fact you are the know it all...is NOTHING....if you don't have the love of God in your heart. Cliche? The part of I Corinthians 13 talks about having certain gifts, but if you don't have love, it's worth Jack Squat. I have been, and am arrogant, this is not love. Humility is something i view as a by product of a true compassionate love. I used to say a prayer every morning asking for that. The problem - is that the previous sentence contains the words "used to."

Jennie Gay is getting married soon, I'm glad that they are finally going to settle down, and start their lives together. Love those guys.

I miss my trombone. I've been contemplating the possibility of going back to school. And I have started to lean toward wanting to get my doctorate. Before - I was 100% against it. And I'm not sure right now if I want it just to be called "Dr. Garcia" cause it sounds cool...even though there are many benefits to going back and getting that degree. DMA's help when you want to actually get a college teaching job. Sometimes, the scholarship money is better for a DMA as opposed to the Diploma or Certificate that I was after, though that is definitely a SOMETIMES argument. But where to do that at.....

I'll tell you where. Wherever ashley get's a job - she is excelling beyond her own, and everyone else's expectations. This is her niche, and I wonder why God didn't lead her to this path before now. (that question actually just came into my head, and begs wondrance) I'm excited for her, and she is PUMPED about this field. She has already been told she has all the qualifications and the eye to be a fashion merchandiser...and she also has the skill and creative mind for fashion design. She JUST started sewing this year, and you should she the kind of stuff she can make. It's amazing. I'm ready for fall - Ash and I both have great fall wardrobes, and I can't wait to bust it out.